Have you ever gotten caught up in that vicious cycle? The one where you step on the scale, gasp at the number, and get depressed wondering how you let yourself get this far out of control. I was seeing numbers that never, in a million years, would I have thought I would be seeing on a scale. I was always so active and did my best to stay in shape. Every time I saw those numbers I felt hopeless. This has been me for quite some time. I have been miserable and feeling sorry for myself. Wishing I could change that number on the scale without REALLY doing anything about it. Yeah, I have exercised some here and there, but nothing to really make much of a difference lately. One day, something snapped and I realized I can't keep feeling this way and I can't keep watching the number on the scale creep higher and higher month after month. At that moment I realized just how miserable I had really been, for so long. It was time for me to really do something about it.
I decided to go back to Weight Watchers for what seems like the 100 hundredth time. It was very hard for me to walk through those doors again. All I could think of is, them seeing me and thinking "Oh here she is again. How long is she going to stick with it this time?" But you know what...I realized it didn't matter even if they did think that. I had to do this for me. Not just to be skinny but for health reasons and to feel better mentally and physically. I also realized that if I joined I had to stick with the meetings instead of going to a few and then deciding I could do it on my own...which always resulted in me quitting the program all together.
I walked into Weight Watchers, holding my breath, determined that this was it. This time it's the real deal, I am sticking with it and I am going to get myself back to being the healthy, physically fit person I used to be. This past Saturday was my forth meeting...more than I had attended before. I earned my Weight Watchers charm/key ring.
I am planning to fill that ring up with charms to show all of my accomplishments along the way. I am so excited and motivated, and look forward to going to my meeting each week! I am down 9 pounds in four weeks! I know I still have a long way to go... but I am off to a really good start! I feel so much better already, I can't even imagine how much better I feel as I continue to lose the weight. Stay tuned.......
